Pay it Forward 2011

The picture says it all! Maybe I will get some followers to read my blog and get at least 5 e-mails by the end of the year!

He knows...

It still amazes me that I am still surprised at GOD’s omniscience!  He knows all about me and what I need. He is always on time! I received a word from a friend’s website that has truly been uplifting to my spirit.

GOD is not surprised about where I am in my life. There are seasons in life that we must all go through. Knowing that he saw this point in my life before I was created is enough hope that allows me to see the silver lining in my cloud.  All I need to do is hold on because GOD’s timing is perfect.

Naked

Well, I have been contemplating on starting my own blog for a couple of months now because I love to read about what is happening in the lives of complete strangers! I am a blog stalker.

Why now?

I finally discovered something today. Actually, admitting this is probably more of an appropriate statement.

I am emotionally broken. To utter those words make me feel naked in a room filled with strangers. It makes me feel vulnerable and scared. But, I have to do whatever it takes to get out of this funk that I am in.

I have been through some things recently that have left me feeling emotionally detached from some people and situations. Well, I am tired of it…sick and tired of it. When exactly did I become this person that I do not know?  I understand that people change and grow and go through some sharpening processes, but I have developed into someone that I almost do not recognize.

I have wanted to lose weight but first I needed to get to the root of this desire. I hope that with shedding some pounds, literally and figuratively, that I can uncover the true me!  Verbalizing my brokenness only strengthened this desire within me.

I plan on uncovering the smart, funny, flirtatious, sexy girl that I once was in high school. Pair that with the wisdom of age (approaching the big 3-0) and motherhood and the world just might have a DIVA on its hands! Seriously, I am embarking on period in my life where I am looking to transition into a woman that my daughters look up to and aspire to be like, a woman I would love to be friends with, and a woman that a man is proud to love and be his wife. Most importantly, however, I want to completely fall into the plans that God has for me and my life and be a witness to those around me about what happens when you allow the love of GOD to control your life and completely surrender to HIS will.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New Living Translation)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

I have chosen to keep my blog fairly anonymous right now because I want everyone to be able to relate to the emotions that I have rather than what I might look like. Maybe my blog will be someone else’s reflection as I go through this process.  

Enjoy!